Hello there, anybody who reads this! I'm back! It's been crazy busy and it's so good to be back. I'm reading in Psalms now, just read Psalms 23. At first when I read this I was depressed. Depressed because it reminded me of funerals. Then as I pondered, my feelings turned to....awwwwwe... memories, precious memories. I remembered the little ones at church reciting this as their first memory verse. But as I read and listened to God I realized that these verses tell of a wonderful God, a Holy God, who I can trust my very life with, my every breath! I can trust my family, my children, every single thing to God, my heavenly father! My anxiety, fear, and worry need to be given to God who is in control of everything, EVERYTHING!!! Yes, that's my Awesome God!
So, I've been second guessing the JVR ministry that God has convicted me of. I've wondered if I was ever going to be able to do what God was wanting me to do. I was second guessing my writing, my ability to do what God is calling me to do. The novel I've written hasn’t been published and I'm working on re-editing it now. But the other day, when I read what I had written so far on the JVR-the Novel I surprised myself. I thought to myself, did I really write that? Wow, what a God thing! God has inspired me to write this Novel and He showed me how I need to trust Him! It was so exciting! I'm once again excited and encouraged to continue writing this Novel. I can't wait to finish it! So here's a little bitty sample, the first part of Scenario #1 (there are 5 scenarios that intertwine and tell the full story, plan, and vision of how JVR works):
As I walked through the front door a kind young lady greeted me. She took Chase from my arms as she explained he would be right inside, first door on the right. She handed me a label with a bar code and number on it. Identical labels were attached to the diaper bag and the back of Chase's shirt. Chase never minded strangers. In fact, he almost preferred them over me. I can't say that I blame him, I’ve not been the happiest person around. Chase was taken into the daycare and the receptionist directed me to the stairs. "Straight up, turn left, first door on the right. Eily is expecting you."
Nervously I looked around at the bright clean colors of the interior. More of a house than a daycare, I couldn't help but feel a sense of peace and even a hint of happiness. It was loud, but loud with happy children, babies, chatter, and even singing. I walked up the stairs, made a left and slowly walked into the open door.
I spoke to Eily the other day. I found her number on a flyer my 12 year old brought home from school. She was so pretty and professional looking, yet relaxed and friendly. She immediately stood up and put out her hand. She had a smile on her face that opened a valve that released my built up anxiety. "Hello Darlene! So glad you could make it. Please have a seat over there on the couch. Would you like something to drink?"
I shook her hand and then walked over to the couch. It was such a nice little cozy area with a couple of comfortable couches and a coffee table in-between. "No, that's okay." I really was thirsty but didn't want to ask, not yet anyway, I needed to get this over with.
Eily grabbed a couple of bottled waters out of a small refrigerator and walked over sitting on the couch across from me. "That's okay, I brought a water just in case you change your mind."
"So, I guess you're wondering what we're all about." She opened her water, sat back, crossed her legs and began to explain the process to me. "I'll just lay it all out and then we'll discuss the details and any questions you might have. I find it easier to start off with how JVR works.” Eily took a long drink of her water and then began describing JVR.