Wednesday, March 28, 2012
But why would I expect anything any different? As I sit here listening to the different birds and bugs, with the warm sun against my skin and a cool light breeze flowing through my hair! The soft fragrance in the air. The textures and colors of the many trees as far as the eye can see with the border of a baby blue sky lightly covered with scattered white fluffy clouds ahh yea...the details! Jer. 29 and Romans 8:37 are two scriptures God used today to reassure me that He is in control and that we are doing His will.
Saturday, March 17, 2012
Joyce Meyer Ministries sent a status the othe day, Psalm 27:14...Wow! do you think God is trying to tell me something? Actually more than I realize. I'm enjoying watching him work. And then to look back and see all of the pieces come together, now that's what I call awesome! When I stop and think of all the times I tried to help God out and just got in the way it makes me so sad. Not that I can stop Gods will, oh no! God is still in charge still in control! I and my loved ones lose blessings. Oh how many blessings I've missed. How many blessings have I caused my family to miss out on. I can't even think about it, it hurts too much. But then I realize in the mist of all my messups God loves me so much! He disciplines me, yes...but His grace gives me peace and comfort no matter what. God is in control and does love us. Why would've He given His only son for us if that wasn't true?
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
14 Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD. I should really memorize this verse. This is so much easier said than done. But of course. Very wise. Sometimes I think I have to help God out. Who do I think I am anyway? I remember about 21 years ago. I made a promise to God that I would not use credit anymore. We had three boys the youngest 5. I finally gave into the idea we weren't going to have anymore children, although I wanted a girl so bad I settled with the fact that God blessed me with three healthy boys and some day will bless me with three wonderful daughter in laws. So we sold and gave all the baby stuff including my maternity clothes away. Not long after that I found out I was pregnant. (our 5 year old prayed for a sister.) it was summer and I was so hot with no maternity clothes or budget to buy any. I thought I would help out by making my clothes. I would have to charge the patterns and material, but I was saving by making my own clothes, right? Haha...I know better than to try to outsmart God. Well I made a dress,washed it and it fell apart.God spoke to me loud and clear. "trust me my child." He said. I knew what I had to do. I had to take back the unused material and patterns. If that wasn't humiliating in itself, I had to take the material back to the fabric table to be measured. No big deal you say? Well it is when you used to work in the department and know everybody. Then, and here is the really cool part... The very next day I received two boxes full of maternity clothes from my dad and step mom! How cool is that? Yea...thats my God! "Wait on the Lord!
Saturday, March 10, 2012
Hello there, anybody who reads this! I'm back! It's been crazy busy and it's so good to be back. I'm reading in Psalms now, just read Psalms 23. At first when I read this I was depressed. Depressed because it reminded me of funerals. Then as I pondered, my feelings turned to....awwwwwe... memories, precious memories. I remembered the little ones at church reciting this as their first memory verse. But as I read and listened to God I realized that these verses tell of a wonderful God, a Holy God, who I can trust my very life with, my every breath! I can trust my family, my children, every single thing to God, my heavenly father! My anxiety, fear, and worry need to be given to God who is in control of everything, EVERYTHING!!! Yes, that's my Awesome God!
So, I've been second guessing the JVR ministry that God has convicted me of. I've wondered if I was ever going to be able to do what God was wanting me to do. I was second guessing my writing, my ability to do what God is calling me to do. The novel I've written hasn’t been published and I'm working on re-editing it now. But the other day, when I read what I had written so far on the JVR-the Novel I surprised myself. I thought to myself, did I really write that? Wow, what a God thing! God has inspired me to write this Novel and He showed me how I need to trust Him! It was so exciting! I'm once again excited and encouraged to continue writing this Novel. I can't wait to finish it! So here's a little bitty sample, the first part of Scenario #1 (there are 5 scenarios that intertwine and tell the full story, plan, and vision of how JVR works):
As I walked through the front door a kind young lady greeted me. She took Chase from my arms as she explained he would be right inside, first door on the right. She handed me a label with a bar code and number on it. Identical labels were attached to the diaper bag and the back of Chase's shirt. Chase never minded strangers. In fact, he almost preferred them over me. I can't say that I blame him, I’ve not been the happiest person around. Chase was taken into the daycare and the receptionist directed me to the stairs. "Straight up, turn left, first door on the right. Eily is expecting you."
Nervously I looked around at the bright clean colors of the interior. More of a house than a daycare, I couldn't help but feel a sense of peace and even a hint of happiness. It was loud, but loud with happy children, babies, chatter, and even singing. I walked up the stairs, made a left and slowly walked into the open door.
I spoke to Eily the other day. I found her number on a flyer my 12 year old brought home from school. She was so pretty and professional looking, yet relaxed and friendly. She immediately stood up and put out her hand. She had a smile on her face that opened a valve that released my built up anxiety. "Hello Darlene! So glad you could make it. Please have a seat over there on the couch. Would you like something to drink?"
I shook her hand and then walked over to the couch. It was such a nice little cozy area with a couple of comfortable couches and a coffee table in-between. "No, that's okay." I really was thirsty but didn't want to ask, not yet anyway, I needed to get this over with.
Eily grabbed a couple of bottled waters out of a small refrigerator and walked over sitting on the couch across from me. "That's okay, I brought a water just in case you change your mind."
"So, I guess you're wondering what we're all about." She opened her water, sat back, crossed her legs and began to explain the process to me. "I'll just lay it all out and then we'll discuss the details and any questions you might have. I find it easier to start off with how JVR works.” Eily took a long drink of her water and then began describing JVR.